Live Life Intentionally

1. Everything changes and ends
2. Things do not always go according to plan
3. Life is not always fair
4. People are not always loving and loyal
5. Pain is part of life.

1: I always think of Wayne's World when I think of change.  "We fear change."  I like to stick to a routine but the changes that have been made over the year by myself and by others have been okay.  Subtle change is the best change- I think.

2: Tonight for instance, I flipped out because Kevin was in the shower still when I got to his house.  Like, why couldn't he take a shower before I even told him I was leaving my house to Newport.  But you know what, it's okay.  I survived, and we weren't late for anything, the movie theatre was still there.  I got my point across on how it can come off as lazy- whatever it's in the past.  Things don't go to accordingly, but no one dies.

3: Life isn't fair.  People die when you're not ready for them to.  People break up with you and you can't even plead your case anymore because they've already made up their mind.  Asian's don't know how to tip. (not racist.)

4: Everybody has been hurt by another person.  Everybody always thinks of themselves first and that is the way that it should be.  People can be on the wrong page with each other and that is how people get hurt.  What I'm getting at is what one person may think is the right thing to do, another could disagree entirely..

5: I don't think people can appreciate happiness and joy if they haven't experienced pain and sadness.

Yeah, well I just found out about this book.  I haven't read it yet but I am going to.  I like the theme.  I think the idea of living with intention.  Unintentional actions (gaining weight, being late, etc.) happen because of subconscious thoughts... which are intentional in their own way... so why not always be aware of your actions at all times?

& Something that I've heard all my life but I finally realized that it was a good thing is:  Don't make decisions  when you're upset.

"Fuck the Police"

I hate driving.  I hate cars and I, above all, hate cops.  All these things are linked.  Yeah sure, they are supposed to protect us.  Why do I get a mini panic attack when I see one driving- even in the opposite direction as me.  I've been in enough accidents I think for the rest of my life.  I met my quota there.  I've only had to deal with the police twice in my assortment of accidents and I guess they were okay.  I was in shock during 1, and really upset during the other.  (Only 1 was my "fault". I'm not getting into that now.)  

I got a parking ticket last year for being too close to a fire hydrant even though I was clearly out of the yellow markers.  And I got a ticket at the OCC parking lot because me and Coll lost the sticker pass thing.  Now let's get to my "pull overs".  I've been pulled over numerous occasions, but never like tonight.  Once I was pulled over on Sand Canyon for going 80 in a 60.  I can respect that.  The cop told me to put my hand out and he smacked it lightly and let me go.  Another time I rolled a right turn on a red light.  I didn't even realize I did it.  "California Stop"...  I was let go with a warning.  One night I was driving Colleen home from Newport and right as I got off the freeway I was followed by a cop.  I was getting really nervous that I wasn't driving straight enough that I was freaking myself out.  I was of course perfectly normal and okay to drive.  I decided to turn left instead of going straight and they followed.  Then they sped up in front of me, hit the brakes, and turned their lights on.  I don't have a front license plate.  There's a place for it, but my dad accidently put my mustang's (RIP) plate on it, so I took it off and never put on the real one. When I got pulled over this time it was like 1 o'clock in the morning.  The cop gave me a sobriety test.  It was dumb.  They let me go.  Then I got pulled over the other night for having my front light out.  I thought it was just the parking light but I guess not.  He didn't even give me a fix it ticket.  I fixed it the next day.  So I've never been in trouble with the police.  I've always been let go.  I give them the information they need and I'm not a dumbass who thinks it's a good idea to drink and drive.  Sure I've been in a couple of accidents but I'm not stupid and above all I'm not rude to these cops who I dislike so much.

Tonight was a different story.  Kevin and I were eating a frosty from Wendy's outside of it and there was a cop slowly creeping apparently watching these other guys.  But this cop still made me feel uneasy.  Then I got this new app on my iPhone that tells you where cops usually are and like traffic cameras and things like that.  Colin and Jacqui picked Kevin and I up to go get donuts around 10:15 tonight.  On the ride there and back we saw 3 cops.  It was a cop kind of night.  Ironic.  In the left turn line off PCH towards Kevin's house, our destination, a cop pulls up behind us.  Sure enough we get pulled over.  The driver didn't have his license on him and I guess he had an outstanding ticket so he had to get out of the car.  We thought he was getting arrested because his hands were behind his back but they were checking him for like drugs and weapons.  One by one we got out of the car and got checked.  Then we had to sit on the curb for 45 min while the lady cop ripped apart the car.  Extremely unnecessary. I had an anxiety attack during this experience and I am still freaked out by it. It shouldn't have happened.  Retarded.  He got a ticket and we got to go home.  Guess what day it is.  Well when we got pulled over it was January 29th..  the end of the month.  Is that something to say for this quota meeting bullshit?

I dunno...  I'm greatful for not getting a ticket for anything but come one.  Go bust meth labs or something. 

So I've Come To The Conclusion...

I hate PCs.  Ive literally spent almost 2 hours trying to hook up my moms scanner to my mac.  I called HP tech support and he said that all he could do was transfer me to a tech guy and charge me $35 dollars.  I asked him if that was really his job and hung up on him.

Finally Dad is downloading some gigantic file so I can scan my amazing pictures.

Cross your fingers it works bitches.

Back in Action

So about 2 1/2 years ago I bought this frame off Urban Outfitters and filled it with pictures and well.... things didn't really work out with some of the people in the frame... but I refilled it today!  It's a bubble frame, so from depending on what way you look at it, it looks really cool.

I am on a cleaning frenzy and found it hiding in the back of my closet.  It was a good/weird feeling ripping off and throwing away the old pictures.  Oh well, the time has come (well it already has) but OFFICIALLY to move on.  

I just threw away 2 trashbags filled with half empty shampoos and old lotions hiding under my bathroom sinks (I have 2 sinks).  I've finished cleaning 1/2 of my closet.  On the other half the entire pole hanger thing fell down so all my shirts are stuffed in my drawers which I am now realizing that I need.  

I am over gadgets and little trinkets being displayed on my desk.  You know model homes?  I want to move right into one and not add a single fucking vase or fruit basket.  Anyway... I need to get new light bulbs up in my closet too.  It's a dungeon in there.  It is literally never ending.. I'm afraid to go to the very end.  There are probably 200 books and super old clothes.

About every 6-8 months I go through my clothes and put aside the ones I don't wear anymore.  I wouldn't consider myself a hoarder... but it's starting to look that way and it scares me and I want it to stop immediately.

I thought I was finished with my desk until I found another box of "office supplies".  Everyone always looks for the scissors in my house and well... I've found 8.  Oops.

Here's a picture of my cool frame that I am proud of and I'm off to do more cleaning.

Oh yeah! Also Kevin showed me the new "band" or group I don't even know what to call it.  Download the song My Delirium- Ladyhawke immediately.

Also- Meredith & Colleen, I know love Lady Gaga.  

Things I am excited for:

• Buying school supplies
• Meredith's new job!
• Making a dinner with Kevin with my Nintendo DS
• Postal Service CD coming out
• Franz Ferdinand (sp?) CD coming out
• My dad buying us a BluRay
• Watching Planet Earth on it.
• Watching Shark Week on it.
• Camping with Kevin, Brett, & Michael
• Vegas with Kevin, Taylor, & Co.
• Coachella with the world

And to everyone out there stop what you're doing right away and go buy a Wii Fit.

This Past Weekend...

So it's been awhile since I've wrote something...

These past 2 weeks have been alright-okay.  I spent most of my time with Kevin.  Michelle came back from USC so it was really good catching up with her!  Cameron is learning to share Colleen with me.  Coll & I are trying to get Kevin and Cam to become friends so we can do more things together... or at least that is my plan.  Meredith and Shaun also came down from San Fran, but I only got to spend like 2 or 3 nights with them :(.

Work has kind of been annoying. Usually the first person who comes in is the first person to leave.  There is always something to work around though because some people have children or other jobs- whatever.  But there are also out times on the schedules.  The thing with out times are that NO ONE follows them.  On Friday I was scheduled 11:15-1:30.  At 2:45 I was told to take the front half of the restaurant.  Um, I wasn't aware that I was supposed to close?  It isn't that big of a deal you know but they should just delete all the out times because apparently it's a waste of ink. 

We drove down to San Diego Friday night to meet at Verdone's new house.  He brought some girl as his date named Sarah, Brett & Michael came, and so did Jess & David.  We went to Donovan's Steak House for Restaurant Week.  At the bar, I ordered a glass of Pinot Noir. "You're 21 right?"  A nod was all it took.  The food was amazing.  It was a 3 course meal for only $40.  I ordered a chopped salad with a vinaigrette dressing, the 6 oz filet with 2 jumbo shrimp scampi with amazing mashed potatoes and veggies.  For dessert, they actually ran out of creme brulee so I went with the Key Lime Pie.  We also ordered 2 bottles of wine of the table.  I don't remember what kind of wine it was.  It was soooo fun though!  Restaurant Week has moved up to Newport area and its $20-30 per person up here.

Kev and I spent the money to see My Bloody Valentine 3D.  Blah, the effects were cool though.  And we went to See's right before and stocked up on some Bordeuxs or however you spell it.

It seems that something "big" is happening every month until Summer, so that is something to look very foward to!

School starts February 2.  The next weekend, Kevin, Brett, Michael and I are driving up to Big Sur to go camping.  Michael knows the girl who owns the resort so we get to stay for free.  I just bought this 0F Swiss Army sleeping bag.  I'm pretty excited for this... I wonder what food we're going to bring..

In March we have Colleen's 20th birthday, which I'm sure will be fun!  And Kevin's best friend Taylor is turning 21 and has 2 suites at the Wynn so we're staying there for a weekend.  I've only been to the Vegas airport so yeah.  I know I can't gamble but we'll figure something out.

April 11th is Kevin's 21st.  After that is Coachella- a 3 day music festival where camping is also involved.

Thats all for now

So Lately...

So Kevin and I went to Griffith Park Observatory the other night.  I've been before, but it was his first time.  We really like the huge ceiling movie thing.  Above are some pictures from the night.  I used my digital camera.

Over the past few days many things have been happening.  I had to cancel my debit card because the two companies that have been charging still have my information so it is just a precaution.  Actually one of the companies e-mailed me saying that they found my blog online by using webloyalty.com.  I think that's a little scary but I don't have to deal with them anymore.  E-mail me if you want to see a copy of the e-mail.  Because my card got cancelled I had to go into AT&T to pay my bill.  I had no idea that there was a little kiosk that took cash.  I think I'll always use it because it was kind of cool.  I put in an extra $20, it doesn't give change.  So now I have an $18 credit with them.  Nice.

Things I'm looking forward to: 

• San Diego Donovan Steak House Dinner in San Diego
• Notorious BIG Movie
• The Unborn Movie
• My Bloody Valentine 3D IMAX Movie
• Making bank for the next couple of shifts
• The last couple days of winter break

Things I'm not so much looking forward to:

• Paying my credit card bill
• School starting